October 5, 2004

  • Then a ploughman said, "Speak to us of Work." And he answered, saying:
    You work that you may keep pace with the earth and the soul of the
    earth. For to be idle is to become a stranger unto the seasons, and to
    step out of life's procession, that marches in majesty and proud
    submission towards the infinite. When you work you are a flute through
    whose heart the whispering of the hours turns to music. Which of you
    would be a reed, dumb and silent, when all else sings together in
    unison? Always you have been told that work is a curse and labour a
    misfortune. But I say to you that when you work you fulfill a part of
    earth's furthest dream, assigned to you when that dream was born, And
    in keeping yourself with labour you are in truth loving life, And to
    love life through labour is to be intimate with life's inmost secret.
    But if you in your pain call birth an affliction and the support of the
    flesh a curse written upon your brow, then I answer that naught but the
    sweat of your brow shall wash away that which is written. You have been
    told also life is darkness, and in your weariness you echo what was
    said by the weary. And I say that life is indeed darkness save when
    there is urge, And all urge is blind save when there is knowledge, And
    all knowledge is vain save when there is work, And all work is empty
    save when there is love; And when you work with love you bind yourself
    to yourself, and to one another, and to God. And what is it to work
    with love? It is to weave the cloth with threads drawn from your heart,
    even as if your beloved were to wear that cloth. It is to build a house
    with affection, even as if your beloved were to dwell in that house. It
    is to sow seeds with tenderness and reap the harvest with joy, even as
    if your beloved were to eat the fruit. It is to charge all things you
    fashion with a breath of your own spirit, And to know that all the
    blessed dead are standing about you and watching. Often have I heard
    you say, as if speaking in sleep, "he who works in marble, and finds
    the shape of his own soul in the stone, is nobler than he who ploughs
    the soil. And he who seizes the rainbow to lay it on a cloth in the
    likeness of man, is more than he who makes the sandals for our feet."
    But I say, not in sleep but in the over-wakefulness of noontide, that
    the wind speaks not more sweetly to the giant oaks than to the least of
    all the blades of grass; And he alone is great who turns the voice of
    the wind into a song made sweeter by his own loving. Work is love made
    visible. And if you cannot work with love but only with distaste, it is
    better that you should leave your work and sit at the gate of the
    temple and take alms of those who work with joy. For if you bake bread
    with indifference, you bake a bitter bread that feeds but half man's
    hunger. And if you grudge the crushing of the grapes, your grudge
    distils a poison in the wine. And if you sing though as angels, and
    love not the singing, you muffle man's ears to the voices of the day
    and the voices of the night.

    I wish I could work with love. Too bad no one does their fucking job! I
    hate repeating myself over and over again with no results. We all work
    for the same company! Doesn’t that mean we are all on the same team?
    Don’t teams work together? Maybe I’m missing an important memo
    somewhere that says work against your teammate.

    I hate that somehow society has placed money above all else and
    therefore we have to work. Doing something I’m not interested in for
    the rest of my life (at least until I retire) does not appeal to me.
    That’s why I’m trying to build up my asset column. While many only
    dream of being independently wealthy, I know that I will be rich. My
    whole goal in life is to work with love. In order for me to do that I
    need money to meet my daily needs. But once that issue is taken care of
    I can work at helping others and not worry about a freaking paycheck!!!
    I just wish I had a genie in a bottle so that my goals could be reached
    instantaneously. I guess that’s the whole point of life…the journey.
    I’m getting sick of this journey. I want results now!!!

September 30, 2004

  • So my best friend is pregnant. Wow! I was totally speechless after she
    told me. And if you know me, you know that I am a talker. I couldn’t
    think of anything to say. I mean my friend isn’t even 23 yet! At least
    her parents are going to help her, but still it is a life-changing
    responsibility. The only thing I could do was ask some questions and
    just let her talk it out. She seems to be taking it very well. I think
    the hardest part right now is quitting smoking. Eek! Hey, my mom smoked
    when she was pregnant with me, and I turned out ok. I’m hoping that in
    the end this will really help my friend to grow up and be more
    responsible. Now you might be wondering why I’m all bent out of shape
    seeing as how there are tons of young single mothers out there. Well my
    friend has had one of the most crazy lives you could ever imagine, and
    while I don’t doubt that she’ll be a great mother I have my doubts
    about her support system and about the fact that life seems to throw
    her a curveball just when you think she’s on the straight and narrow.
    Well, I am almost out of time, so I will continue this exploration
    tomorrow.

August 24, 2004

  • Cast all your votes for dancing

    I
    know the voice of depression

    Still calls to you.

    I know those habits that can ruin your life

    Still send their invitations.

    But you are with the Friend now

    And look so much stronger.

    You can stay that way

    And even bloom!

    Keep squeezing drops of the Sun

    From your prayers and work and music

    And from your companions' beautiful laughter.

    Keep squeezing drops of the Sun

    From the sacred hands and glance of your Beloved

    And, my dear,

    From the most insignificant movements

    Of your own holy body.

    Learn to recognize the counterfeit coins

    That may buy you just a moment of pleasure,

    But then drag you for days

    Like a broken man

    Behind a farting camel.

    You are with the Friend now.

    Learn what actions of yours delight Him,

    What actions of yours bring freedom

    And Love.

    Whenever you say God's name, dear pilgrim,

    My ears wish my head was missing

    So they could finally kiss each other

    And applaud all your nourishing wisdom!

    O keep squeezing drops of the Sun

    From your prayers and work and music

    And from your companions' beautiful laughter

    And from the most insignificant movements

    Of your own holy body.

    Now, sweet one,

    Be wise.

    Cast all your votes for Dancing!

    Yeah!!
    for Hafiz. I'm just now discovering this poet. And from what I've read
    so far he is great! I'm still working on my very first scrapbook, but
    it is much more costly than I could ever have imagined. So, I hope to
    one day finish, but that won't be any time soon. (sigh) Oh well, back
    to work I go.


August 11, 2004

  • So, I have decided to start a scrapbook of my life. Very hard and kind
    of expensive craft. I think in the end it will be worth it though. I'm
    just taking it one page at a time. Once I get all of the supplies I
    need I'll probably pump out tons of pages. The hardest part so far has
    been inspiration. Luckily there is this thing called the web. I was
    able to find so many ideas that now I'm a little overloaded. But I'm
    still very excited.

August 3, 2004

  • Xanga

    This is
    my first entry. No clue where to begin. I must admit that this site is
    a little intimidating. So many people with so much to say. Does anyone
    truly hear you? Something to think about. Do we really care? Does
    anyone know what Im talking about? Probably not. Oh well. Hehehe.